Linda Watanabe McFerrin: Travel, Here and There/San Francisco

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photo by Linda Watanabe McFerrin

Noche de Los Muertos

by Linda Watanabe McFerrin

Remembering a dark night in San Francisco …

We are pressed, our backs to the wall, in Balmy Alley, a bottleneck of a back street in San Francisco’s Mission District, as the dead drift by.

Skeletons on stilts, in bridal gowns, playing drums in steel bands—Los Muertos, The Dead—proceed in almost single-file procession through a cramped alleyway that feels like the birth canal to another world.

We are skeletons too. My husband Lowry and our friend Jeff are tall, gaunt, black-caped and spectral. The white markings on the chest of Lowry’s black shirt suggest a ribcage. Jeff’s black gloves are spidered with bones. Earlier in the evening, at a table in the window of a Yucatecan restaurant, I used grease crayons in white, black and red to hollow out eyes and noses and widen grins, painting our faces like skulls as passersby pointed and gawked.

Every year in the Mission, on the heels of Halloween, the Dia de Los Muertos Procession, part of a celebration that fuses Aztec beliefs in death and afterlife with the Christian Day of All Saints, sets forth from the corner of 24th and Bryant. This is, in many ways, the spiritual heart of San Francisco. Mission Dolores, where Franciscan fathers founded what is today California’s oldest intact mission, is a short walk away, and much of this area still retains its alluring blend of Old and New World ritual.

Over 10,000 people crowd the crossroads on the night of this supernatural juncture, and yet the scene is oddly subdued, laced with a potent mix of reverence and expectation. Around his neck, Jeff wears a photo of his brother. Many people carry photographs or remembrances of lost loved ones. In my heart I hold a picture of my mother who died a few months before. My votive candle, or velador, which I purchased at the little store adjacent to the Galeria del la Raza, is tall and sparkled with red. It has a picture of a heart painted upon it, and it says, “corazon,” the word for heart in Spanish. In preparation for this night, the shelves of the shop are populated with skeletons. There are white sugar skulls dressed in hot colors, devil and skull rattles made out of papier-mâché, and brightly-dyed mesh and oilcloth bags bearing images of Frida Kahlo, Anima Sola, La Catrina, the Virgen de Guadalupe and other popular icons. There are femur-trimmed picture frames, books about the Day of the Dead and row upon row of gorgeously embellished velas.

People flow into the intersection, greetings exchanged in murmurs. Lowry and I spot Kara, John, and their beautiful baby girl, Ruby who, it turns out, live just down the street. My black bag is filled with tiny votive candles. I hand one to Ruby. Kara helps light it. Little Ruby’s eyes widen as the first skeleton she has ever met hands her a gift. Fingers of incense rise up from the crowd and twirl away into the twilight. Then there is music, Aztec flutes and drums, and the procession sets off at a dreamy shuffle.

Up 25th we amble reflectively—mothers, fathers, children, pets—and then down 24th, the music, the smoke, the bruisy-blue warmth of an Indian summer eve massaging us into altered states. On the sidewalks around us—in the clubs, the taquerias, and all-night laundromats—the denizens of the Mission, many Hispanic, most just finishing or beginning dinner, watch the procession and smile. Our crowd stretches across the street. We feel powerful and anonymous, magically garbed as the dead. On the corners, the musicians stop to perform.

But it is in Balmy Alley as the parade nears its final destination and the crowd thins, by necessity, to a sly trickle that this otherworldly assembly comes truly alive. Pirates, babies, ingénues, clowns, old men, dancing girls, drummers and dogs shake, rattle and roll their clavicular way down the bemuralled aperture.  It is tight and close in the narrow passageway and warm and suffocatingly intimate, and I have never felt safer than, here, in this dimly lit funnel of a street surrounded, as I am, by the dead. We wait, let the circus push past, then follow it, burped back out into the open on 25th between Treat and Harrison Streets at the southern end of Garfield Park.

The park is aglow with candles and altars. The bands set up on the sidewalks around it. Creepily clad celebrants cavort at its corners. A big group gathers at an altar in front of a swing set wrapped in crepe paper and garlanded in flowers where papier-mâché skeletons sitting on swings are caught in eternal frolic. Amid velas and pictures and offerings and incense, people crouch, kneel and sit in aspects of meditation and prayer. I wander through the park adrift in the half-light, watch the young, the old, the living, the dead, circle, pause, and salute one another. The smoke of our candles, the light of our flames, the energy of our dreams and hopes and love flare up and out, and the darkness bears down to embrace us. The community of both worlds swings back and forth, back and forth, on the arc of a fearless affection. The dead never leave us; we leave them, not knowing how to entertain spirits, how to keep them at home in our lives. Tonight we remember; we make room for the dead. Tonight, they are among us.

Poet, travel writer and novelist Linda Watanabe McFerrin (, has been traveling since she was two and writing about it since she was six. A contributor to numerous journals, newspapers, magazines, anthologies and online publications, she is the author of two poetry collections, an award-winning novel (Namako:  Sea Cucumber) and short story collection (The Hand of Buddha), and the editor of a travel guidebook (Best Places Northern California, 4th ed.) and four literary anthologies.

A past winner of the Nimrod International Katherine Anne Porter Prize for Fiction she teaches and leads workshops in fiction and creative non-fiction. Her latest novel, Dead Love (, a Bram Stoker Award finalist for Superior Achievement in a Novel and current candidate for a Carl Brandon Society award was published by Stone Bridge Press in 2010.

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